Defining GROCK
A story, some etymology, exercises, and visualizers
First, a little story.
ME AND MY SEVERED HEAD
I could not look her in the eyes, my monstrous, SEVERED HEAD. She refused my hand and rolled down the street like a damn spaghetti-O can.
A cyber-CUCK nearly steamrolled the poor thing. I GOT YOU. Alas, the overwhelming sense of completion.
I took great care of her. We even had F.U.N.! I braided her vocal cords, and she gave me back scratchies with her teeth.
She wanted my body. Of course, she did. I woke up to my own flesh swallowing me like a glove. A seamless job, you wouldn’t know the difference between me and my severed head.
But I’m still here, seeing behind four eyeballs between two pickled brains.
You better believe it!!! :)
GROCK VS. Grace
May I re-introduce myself? My name is GROCK, akin to the word “GROK,” which means to intuit.
I dug into the etymology of the word ‘Grok”— it was the invention of science fiction writer Robert A. Heinlein, whose 1961 novel “Stranger in a Strange Land” placed great importance on the concept of “grokking.” In the book, to grok is to empathize so deeply with others that you merge or blend with them. I need to do more digging on Robert A. Heinlein to properly discern whether the man is based on not (you never know with cis-male sci-fi writers). Ultimately, grok is neither here nor there— the sentiment has been here forever.
I am re-identifying and re-introducing myself to the world as GROCK. Repetition is essential. I must say it over and over again. Speaking and writing ground my spazzy jazzy thoughts LET ME OUT ! ! ! SAY IT SAY IT SAY IT from the soul, through the gut, out the mouth, RELEASE the BOUNTIFUL REGURGITATION. Right now, I’m committed to the written, spoken, performed, and visual mediums as my preferred methods of regurgitation. YUCK! YUM!
Back to Robert’s definition of “Grok,” which I LOVE, I’ve been thinking a lot about intuition as a sacred and previously lost art to me. DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED HOW GROK IS THE NAME OF AN AI SOFTWARE (cucks). That’s not my Grok. To my forlorn point, sometimes, lots of de-programming must be done to reconnect with our intuition. BUGS BUGS BUGS ERROR ERROR ERROR. Re-routing me, re-routing me, avoiding, avoiding, avoiding!!! Let’s go back to where we started.
GROCK
GRACK
GROCK
Not just yet… I came into this world as Grace. HOW SWEET THE SOUND. THAT SAVED A WRETCH LIKE ME. Amazing. Fantastic. When I was born, Grace was all the rage! Grace was a dime a dozen, and we were everywhere. My parents suggested I differentiate myself with a double name, that included my middle name. Thus, therefore, I would be “Grace-Lauren.” What in the mckenna-annaleigh-cuckery??? Absolutely not. Grace, by itself, would suffice.
In fourth grade, I wanted to rename myself REX. The name possessed me. Who whispered it to me? Perhaps it was a baby Grock wanting to be known. I scribbled REX on my pencil bag and announced my new name to my tablemates in English class. LET IT BE KNOWN. But it didn’t quite catch on, and I was too shy to enforce it.
While I never loved my given name, Grace, it has a lovely definition I respect. Grace means simple elegance or refinement of movement…. It means to honor or credit to… it's quite chivalrous… perhaps too considerate. I did ballet for eighteen years and stand up too straight now. I out myself as Grace when I am really Grock. That WRETCH. ;)
The first time someone called me Grock… it was so random… a conversation with a friend in the middle school cafeteria lunch line (hey Sin!). Did she mean to say Grace? Was it a Grockian slip? It was correct. I was Grock. LET IT BE KNOWN. Much later in life, a college friend (hey bean!) found me again. She had been using the sound of “Grock” as an abbreviation for Gracias → “GRAC” → and I found myself as Grock again. It just felt right.
EXERCISES AND VISUALIZERS
GROCK Noun
In a sentence: “WHAT A SWEET GROCK YOU GOT OVER THERE.”
A GROCK is simply defined as a sprout of aliveness in a dark place.
Often more than a sprout, it is a radical, excessive growth.
Or perhaps a natural disaster.
[Grocks can make you wonder… what am I looking at… why!? <0> ]
[There are so many pictures I want to include here, but I’ll leave the hunting and gathering to you. If you see a grock out there, say hi and introduce yourself!]
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GROCK Verb
In a sentence: “I GROCK YOU.”
To GROCK (someone or yourself) is an untethering, lovingly and shamelessly, to the ways one has been domesticated, privileged, obsessive, compulsive, and SHHHH!!!! SO QUIET, or else, god forbid, never to be grocked again.
In other words, when I GROCK YOU— I free you.
Important note to the orator: the words MUST BE HOWLED, or you will bear nine children TOMORROW.
And watch your tone! It could mean something different.
(with tenderness) I grock you = I got you, you’re safe with me :)
(with huzzah) I grock you = I rock your world. It will never be the same!!!
(with a healthy dose of anger) I grock you = GRAAAAACK, I cast you OUT OUT OUT DEMON!!!!!
[Last night out in WeHo, the terrifying essence of grock, grocking, and getting grocked was captured. Do not be afraid!]
Other musings & conclusions
Grock also sounds like a disease, particularly the sexual ones, but don’t let that be your parting thought. There are countless ways of grocking in this world. May grock enjoy their many severed heads, coming together as one… for just a precious moment… UNTIL THEY SCATTER and LAUGH and SPIT IN YOUR FACE and scream GO AWAY please I’VE HAD ENOUGH.
Good GROCK, bad GROCK, it’s not binary! I am constantly revising the definition. The words frequently escape me, but today, these L I T T L E o n e s want to stay. Thank you! Enjoy! Yes and…
GET GROCKED!!!!!!!!
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GROCK